Oh i can relate to that so much. I went through a very similar experience only that in my case the trigger was a mushroom trip gone sideways and a two year episode of severe anxiety and panic attacks. Humans need crisis to change. We need to see the darkness, we need to feel the raging storm inside of us, to be able to appreciate the light when it gets back to us. Before it was all grey, now life is more colorful than i thought it could be. Thanks for sharing. This is a good “how to” guide for the second summit. I am on my way up. Published my story on medium as well, in case you’re interested. Would love to get your feedback! Much love and strength. Jan